Have you guessed yet?
It’s 3 Fucking AM.
Good lord, it’s been a long time since I’ve done one of these. I was doing fairly well with going to sleep at a decent hour. And by decent I mean before 1 AM. But for some reason my brain has been going, “Nah, bitch you don’t need sleep.” And I’m not gonna lie, I’m honestly not tired. I’m not sure if that’s because I’m so used to my tired that it feels normal or because I’ve reached a whole new level of tired that my brain is just absolute shit.
I kinda wanna say it’s a combination of both.
Well that and because I’ve been writing this story.
Now when I say I’ve been writing a story, I’ve been writing a fucking STORY. This is—without a doubt—the LONGEST fucking thing I’ve ever written. It’s a fucking beast. And the (sorta, not really) funny thing is, it started as something I wanted to write for myself. But now a part of me wants to show other people?! The only personal pieces I’ve ever shared are my poems and short stories. And those are the ones for this place. But now I’m thinking (a bad sign if you ask me).
If I were to put chunks of the story here, would you like to read it? Ughhh!!! I’m pretty sure I’m fuckin’ delirious right now ‘cuz it looks like the computer keys are moving by themselves. Shit. Yeah, once I see this post in the morning I’ll probably just “Nope” and forget about sharing. I don’t know, I really don’t.
I’m that combination of too-exhausted-to-function, too-wired-to-sleep, and so unable-to-function that I shouldn’t even TRY to make any decisions right now.
But I felt kind bad for not posting anything for Tuesday night so hows about Wednesday morning. Fucking early o’clock on a Wednesday morning.
But hey, a post is still a post.
I should probably go to sleep now if I want to function tomorrow (technically later today). But I’m not sure how that’ll go.
I’ll let you know if I succeed in making the right choice.
Until next time,
~ Miss Misfit x