Wow, it’s been a long time… School is back in swing, work is a handful, and life is just as strange as ever. But that’s not what I want to talk about. Because, while I haven’t been very active here, I’ve become extremely active on my Twitter.
Listen, I really like Twitter. It’s a quick and easy way to express my thoughts, share my voice, and just be a little odd. But recently, I’ve seen some things that made me take a step back, reflect, and ask myself a few questions.
Is it bad or wrong to want attention? Am I only doing these things to feed my ego and boost my self-esteem?
To be honest, I couldn’t answer these questions. Not right away, at least. Because I wasn’t sure if I was posting for the “right” reasons.
I mean, I share a lot of selfies and videos of myself singing but it’s not as though I have a massive audience. I just really like expressing myself in those ways. But I couldn’t help thinking that maybe I was just fishing for compliments.
Am I being narcissistic for wanting to show off a bit?
The honest answer is: yeah, I probably am. Or at least that’s how I appear to others.
But here’s the thing: I’m allowed to.
Because for the longest time, I didn’t love myself. I didn’t even really like myself. I didn’t know how to. I had to learn to accept my many faults and I’m still learning.
But I truly believe there’s nothing wrong with wanting to show off.
As long as you’re not doing it to deliberately hurt someone. That’s just being an ass.
But it’s good to be proud of yourself. Whether it’s because you look extra cute in that picture you took or you made/did/accomplished something you’re really happy with or just because YOU CAN.
You see, you don’t need a reason to be proud of who you are. It’s a form of self-love and everyone deserves that.
And it sucks that a lot of people feel that they do need a reason to “show off”. And for the longest time, I was one of them.
Well, let’s be honest, I still am sometimes.
Because it’s so easy to be scared of what other people think of you, especially when you compare your abilities to other people’s. You always hear the voices of doubt and self-deprecation whispering in the back of your mind or sneering to your face.
That other person looks way better in their picture than you, so why bother posting it?
Your voice is nowhere near as good as the original; why are you still singing?
You call that art? That’s trash compared to this other person.
Stop trying so hard, you’re making a fool of yourself. Matter of fact, why don’t you just stop trying. Period.
It’s too easy to convince yourself that you can’t do something badly if you don’t do it at all.
But thinking this way isn’t fair to you and it definitely isn’t healthy.
It’s important to allow yourself to show off, regardless of any imperfections you may see. You can always improve later but you have the right to be proud now. Appreciate yourself and let others know that you do. You don’t have to let your fear of judgement stop you. Let yourself be courageous.
So, is it a bad thing to want attention? No. It’s perfectly normal to want to feel seen and acknowledged. And as long as no one is being hurt because of it, don’t feel bad for strutting your stuff. It’s nice to hear compliments, to feel appreciated, but it’s also important that you don’t define your worth through the validation of others.
And do I post to make myself feel good? Without a doubt. I’m proud of the things I accomplish and I’m proud that I can overcome my fear of judgement by sharing them. Whether it’s here on this blog, in person, or somewhere else on the internet.
Who cares if I’m not the best. There will always be someone better than me but that just means I can always reach higher grounds.
A bit of narcissism is nothing to be ashamed of. It just means you have the courage to love yourself.
So, to recap:
- Show off. Don’t feel bad for wanting to show others what you can do, regardless of if you’re a complete novice or renowned expert.
- You don’t need a reason to flaunt, you just can. Allow yourself to feel proud.
- There’s no reason to be ashamed of wanting praise or acknowledgement, it’s normal.
But that’s all for now. I hope this helped some people to see things from a different perspective and broaden their minds.
Until next time,
~ Miss Misfit
P.S. I swear I’ll get back to posting more often. I really do love keeping this blog.