This most recent break/hiatus of mine was not planned. It wasn’t even wanted. But it was something I desperately needed. I needed this time to think about some things and I wasn’t really ready to talk about them yet. Which meant I didn’t really have anything I wanted to share here and the one thing I don’t want to do is post just to say I posted.
So, yeah. I decided to take a break.
Simple enough to see why, you read the title and I don’t think I’m alone. Like the title says, this has been my hardest year of my life so far.
My mental health began a downhill plummet. I was more anxious and depressed and my panic attacks became more frequent. I’ve been so completely exhausted and burnt out.
But I can’t say 2018 was all bad.
I laughed a lot and had fun.
I met some new people that would quickly become really important to me.
I learned new skills.
I started socializing again.
I got a dog that never fails to cheer me up.
I’m getting better at asking for help, no matter how slow going that may be.
I started therapy again.
Already a good start in my opinion.
I have a bad habit of fixating on the bad but I don’t want to start 2019 like that. I can be too jaded and cynical and I think that’s something that really drained me this year. And while I’m still trying to nail this whole balancing act I making progress.
So here’s to wiping the slate clean.
I have so many ideas and projects and things I want to do in 2019, so let’s hit the ground running. What do you say? Because I’m ready to kick ass this year.
Happy New Year!