I am in a place where I’m trying to be who I am. Not find myself or figure out who that is, which I think might actually be easier.
It’s one of those things that I feel like you don’t really understand until you’re in a position to do it.
I have a big personality and I portion out for different interactions.
I’m loud and confident and outgoing. I don’t take bullshit and I roll with the punches to make the most of things.
I’m introverted and observant. I understand people and emotions and I want to be there as support.
I care deeply about things and I get frustrated when there are things I can’t change.
I also brush things off and hold my head high with pride, not a care in the world for what people have to say.
But I have never been able to be all these things at once. I pick and choose when and how and where I can be pieces of me. And that’s exhausting, not to mention confusing.
I know that I can’t always indulge in certain traits all the time but I’m starting to hate having to hide myself.
The past few weeks have been eye opening for me, especially with the health and fitness transformation I’m working on.
I don’t know how I’m going to start this journey but I know that it’s not something I can put off for much longer.
Until next time x